Princessa
Chapter 4 Rumors of War
This is always the hardest part, he thinks. Once you’ve freed a hostage or kidnapped someone, you can never expect them to pass across all the barriers and obstacles with the same deftness as a skilled commando. But the girl does so, and amazingly well. Even seems to enjoy the danger of where one slip of the foot can send you plummeting a long long way down.Surprisingly, at least to Andy, she seems to skim over the tiles of the roof, across the ledges and down the walls almost like she could’ve done this blindfolded while talking to a friend on the phone. He’d heard about all the wild parties and goings on, who hadn’t. About the times the princess had run off, run away and would turn up in Greece or Italy or Monaco. Her photos on all the gossip magazines detailing what she’d allegedly done. Maybe they were true, he didn’t know or really care. She whispers and motions for him to follow her on a shorter quicker route than the one he’d taken to get there.
Once they make their way down and scurry across the grounds and over the high iron fence, Andy retrieves his coat and they’re alone under a streetlamp on the cold wet sidewalk. He pulls the girl toward him and looks down at her face “my God, you’re just a kid” he says, a bit confused at the slightness of her body and her little girl looks.
“Yeah” she replies drawing out the word like wasn’t that obvious huh? “But…you’re in university; you’re …” “I’m an advanced student” she tells him “y’know; my grandfather’s king, good education and all….” “Well…” he says, trying to be composed “you’re prettier than you are in your pictures.” She doesn’t say anything, like heard that one a million times. And the young man can’t see the irritated look on her face.
They walk along quickly through the dark streets. But Andy continues, pressing the point with nothing else he can think of to say “that last one, in the Prenza, I think; you were… on a motorcycle.” “I don’t know” she looks up at him, kind of bored with the subject “I don’t read those things. It doesn’t… really interest me, you know.”
Then not wanting to sound so pretentious, she adds “I think my mother saves all those photos; you know, scrapbook kinda stuff. Well… not that last one, on the motorcycle, when my blouse is blowing open. I don’t think Mom liked that one very much; me either, for that matter. But y’know it’s pretty damned irritating when every time you bend over to tie your shoe there’s some… photographer trying to stick his camera down your shirt. I mean really, I’d just like to live and have fun like everybody else; right? Without… being watched and looked at and stared at all the time.”
Andy considers the hazards and pitfalls of being the richest most beautiful most sought after kid in the country. Most be a pretty terrible ordeal, he thinks. Not like being poor and unwanted and spat upon like some raggedy beggar on the street. But the way she says it, with her sweet sincere melt your heart voice, he almost believes her.
They turn the corner into the large city square, all dark and quiet now even around the great large statue in the center. The gallant prince on his noble horse, rearing up with Leomont holding the reins in one hand and his sword held high in the other. But no one there to see him tonight, just the cold mist and the darkness. Andy hails a taxi and they speed off, heading for the train station.
The girl is wearing a dark felt hat pulled down covering her eyes. But even so the cab driver keeps glancing up into the mirror at the girl in the backseat of his cab. She makes a face at him and he quickly looks away and then swerves to avoid hitting a parked car. Then they’re at the station and once inside the compartment of their train, they can lock the glass doors and close the curtains facing the aisle and sit back and relax.
“I’m Andy” he says reaching for her hand. “Yeah... I know” she says “I saw you before, one time… a couple of years ago.” “Really?” he’s confused, can’t imagine having run into this beautiful young girl before and not remember it. “You were at the palace” she tells him “a young soldier boy getting a medal pinned on by my grandfather. I remember, he fumbled at it, and you smirked at him… later he was angry about that.”
“But you weren’t there” says Andy “I didn’t see you.” “I was... up at the top of the stairway, hiding; peeking through the railing.” “How come? I mean… the only reason we, that anyone would… want to go to the palace and get a medal, is to get a chance to… see you.” “Yeah, exactly” she says like that’s all so clear but only to her and no one else. “What?” he asks, lost for what she’s trying to say.
“Don’t you get it” she asks him “I don’t want to see all the brave young soldiers come home from their stupid wars, all shot up, all hurt, or dead. And all for nothing; just some stupid little medal; some little piece of brass and cloth. Or worse yet, even worst of all, just to get a chance… to see me. You’re gonna risk your life, maybe get maimed for forever, just… for that? I mean, if that’s really your reason, if that’s… makes some kind of ridiculous sense at all, then it’s like I’m the one who’s making you go do that in the first place. Like I’m the one sending you out there. No, I don’t want that; not any part of it; okay?”
Andy doesn’t say anything. Can’t think of what to say or how to explain… something so obvious to everyone. Yet somehow this girl doesn’t understand it at all. The wars, fighting, killing, dying, it has nothing to do with her. Well… maybe it does, what do people fight for anyway. Freedom maybe, that’s a nice idea. But everybody knows you’re only free if you’re very rich or very poor. Otherwise you just work for a living and do what you’re told, and then you get old and die.
He sits there quietly thinking, listening to her as she goes on “and I remember you because, you looked so… nice, in your uniform, even with your arm in a sling.” He laughs at that, and she’s surprised. “Sorry” he says “uh, that’s funny… there was nothing wrong with my arm. I… had a little throw away camera, and was gonna snap a photo of you.” Laughing again “but you weren’t there; or, I didn’t see you anyway.”
The girl just shakes her head, like there’s no end to it. “At supper, that day” she says “Grampa said you were an arrogant son of a bitch.” “Yeah, I suppose. But you know, the funny thing is, when I got back to the barracks, nobody even wanted to know anything about… the king, or the palace, or medals, or any of that stuff. They just asked me if I’d seen… the little girl princess. And I lied, told them I had. Told them you were all so much more beautiful and charming in person.”
“So that’s why you went off to the war, huh?” she asks him. “No. Look, I don’t come from... the same place that you do. In the real world, when you’re nobody, nothing, and you get a chance to, to do something. Maybe, be somebody; make a name for yourself.” “By joining the army?” she asks. “Yeah, and… doing, something special, or heroic, maybe.” “Killing people” she says to him. “They’re trying to kill you too” he says, thinking, doesn’t she understand that at least. “And… whoever succeeds…gets the medal; or the girl” she says, matter of factly.
“You, you simplify things, that aren’t all that simple” he tells her, frustrated that she can’t get the point. “Okay then” she says, like knowing she’s got all the trumps “explain it to me.” “Well, I did my job, okay; and… better than others, maybe, alright? And I got rewarded for it.” “You got, a medal, and, a chance to see the little princess.” “I got, to the palace” says Andy “how many people you think get to do that. I mean, in the real world.”
“Wow” she says “was it all that you imagined it would be?” “Well, it’s something” he says, and then adds “and, I almost got to see you, didn’t I.” “Gee, just think, you coulda just gone down to the coffee shop where I hang out at lunch time.” “Yeah” says Andy, considering that “I suppose… but, I tend to do things the hard way, I guess” like she’s just made everything he’s said or done sound totally silly and meaningless.
Then, thinking of something else, he says “I met with your uncle, earlier this evening. We had dinner.” “Yeah? He’s mad at me; doesn’t like this… school protest stuff.” “So why do you do it?” he asks, with more than just interest. More like got no idea what the hell she’s thinking of. Doin that kinda shit, with all this other stuff goin on in the country right now “that’s a pretty dangerous game, don’t you think, the king’s granddaughter...”
“Yeah, well, what are you gonna do, huh? Just let the Americans push us around, stomp all over us. Stick their… frickin pipeline up our… valleys and whatever, pastureland; huh?” Andy suddenly realizes that there’s a lot more to this pretty young girl than just all those poster-photographs that all the guys are embarrassed to have hanging on their walls, and she being such a youngster and all. But more than just that, she’s like inner circle, like at the top of everything his world revolves around.
“There are two rules we live by” the girl says, like explaining the political workings of her country to him “we don’t fuck with other people, and we don’t let them fuck with us.” “So, what does… the king, think about that?” he asks, while comparing her version to the way Petros had put it.
“He won’t tell me anything, you know. It’s like ‘I’m handling it; I’m dealing with it’ or… ‘I’m working on it.’ That kinda stuff. I mean, who knows… it’s like he’s afraid to do anything. You know they’re gonna force it down our throats, like it or not. And, he’s not gonna do anything about it. And then… we’re gonna be the crossroads of the whole planet for every fuckin terrorist who wants to blow up a train station, or a bus, or a restaurant… And that’s gonna be… well, you know, just all really fucked up.”
She pauses, wondering about who she’s telling all this stuff to. And then figures, what the hell, and continues anyway. “Our beautiful little country… our home, is gonna be just like any other shithole. And… all the people, and all, and everything my parents have worked so hard for; for so long, and so hard, to make this country what it is…”
Andy can see how upset she is about all of it, like feeling personally responsible for what’s been going on. Can see the tears slipping down her face and hear them in her voice. And that tense knot in her stomach like she’s all way past being frustrated and just worried sick now about having tried to make these same arguments over and over again, to anyone who will listen. These same arguments that half the country’s been torn apart over for the better part of the last six months.
“People say” says Andy “that if the king is overthrown, for some reason or other, then… your father will cut a deal with the Americans.” “That’s a bunch a crap” says the girl. “First of all, my father isn’t in line for the throne; my uncle is; that’s by decree. Everybody knows that.” “Yeah, I know. But… just in case, for some reason, if both your grandfather and your uncle, were… not around, then your father, would be king, right?”
“My father, would never cut a deal with the Americans. Good God, do you think he’s worked his whole life, to, build up our economy, to build up trade, and infrastructure, everything; just to… throw it all away? He cares about our country! It’s… what his life is all about.” “Yeah” says Andy “your father is… a fine man, a good man” but he’s thinking, like everyone else thought, that Khail Salin, the wimpy little minister of finance, had never fought a battle in his whole life; never even served in the military; just a pencil-pushing economist.
“I know what you think” says the girl “that Dad is weak and, a push over; but he’s not like that… he isn’t. And anyway, he’s not, interested in being king. He’s not even, in succession.” “But he could be.” “No” says the girl, and pauses, wanting so much to make her point but at the same time not wanting to say what she’s not supposed to. “I am… after Uncle Bruno; if he… isn’t around, then it goes to me.”
“Wow… that’s pretty weird” says Andy, feeling a shiver go up his spine. “Yeah, pretty fuckin weird. The little bratty bitch… is going to be fucking queen someday. Pretty weird, huh?” “Well, uh” says Andy “I didn’t know.” “Nobody does; it’s a secret. Nobody knows except Mom and Dad and Grampa of course, and Booski.”
“Booski?” “Bruno” says the girl “it’s a nick-name.” “I like that” he says, and then thinking about it, asks “why Booski?” “Oh, it’s from a long time ago. He used to always like to sneak up on me and scare me when I was little; like a big bad ogre, or something.” Andy laughs at the thought of the stodgy old minister of defense sneaking around scaring his little niece when she’s a kid.
And then asks her “you have a nick name?” She thinks about it for a moment “cupcake; but that was when I was a real little kid; a little fat kid, y’know?” That’s hard for him to imagine. This skinny little princess looks hardly big enough to even be in university, let alone to have ever been a plump little girl. But then coming back to reality, he asks her “what would you do?”
“If I was queen” she asks. “Yeah.” “Well… I suppose, just what I been sayin, in school, you know; attack both sides.” “Hmm... you want to attack the terrorists and the Americans both; and… we be the smallest tiniest country in…” “Well was else are y’gonna do” she demands, like if there’s another way, any other way, then let’s hear it. “It’s okay” he tells her, calmly “I’m gonna fix it.”
She takes a deep breath and then realizes what he’s just said. “Huh?” she looks over at him and smiles at what a dumb thing to say “you’re gonna what?” “We’re going to… um, we’re going to… get rid of Tomkin.” Maria laughs, and then sees that he’s serious. “Well, that’s, pretty fucking radical, huh.” “Yeah… us or them” he says succinctly, like summing it all up to the simplest equation.
She kind of takes that all in and sorts through it with some mixed feelings. Some reservations about it. “You’re an assassin.” “Just a humble soldier” he replies using an old line that falls off his lips a bit too easily. But he can see that it doesn’t work very well with her. “And, you just had to bring me along with you” she says “for…what?”
He’s kind of stuck there. But Andy knows that if all else fails the truth can be as unsettling as anything. “Well, I didn’t want t’die without meeting you first.” He means that in all honesty and wants it to sound the way he wants it to. But instead it just seems to make her all angry again. “Yeah, well… you know, I go to state funerals; don’t want to, but I do. And… there’re flags, over… the caskets, it’s not all that great, y’know. The boys… the kids; like, they’re just like guys I go to school with…young and… they don’t wanna die or get all…”
“It’s a real world isn’t it” he says; having been to those funerals too. Sometimes even a guy he knows or had trained with; now gone. “Not like something we’d make, if we could” he says, and then adds “but… if you’re gonna go t’war, things break. And... y’know when you go and attack the Yanks and the terrorists both; gonna be a lot a state funerals.”
“I’ll go with them” says the girl resolutely, perfectly assured of her own convictions. Andy smiles at her and thinks of all those sweet crazy notions that kids have about being so intractably righteous and idealistic in their views of the world. He pulls the girl over to him and kisses her on the forehead.